OH MY GOODNESS. IT HAS BEEN WAY TOO LONG.
SO.
Hello, first of all. How have you all been doing???
I have not written anything here since March. And it's not that I have been extremely busy with like, school or anything of the sort. I mean I have, but the past few weeks have also been sort of... draining me. I have been feeling so unmotivated with everything I did, and I did not feel the want to write up a post. I do have a lot of things I want to write about, but the process of putting my thoughts onto the blog were not something I felt like doing. It wasn't just the blog though, I felt like that with everything going on in my life.
A bad habit has started for me. I began sleeping late on school nights. So obviously during school, I would feel so tired and just drained. And I think a lot of people noticed too... My attention span in class would not last long, and my concentration level dropped significantly. My grades didn't get bad or anything, which is a good thing, because I worked even harder to study and complete my assignments. But because I had to put even more work and time into my assignments than I should have needed to, I always felt so exhausted. That made a huge dent in my way of living. And why I always felt so... drained.
My school career, let's say, was not the only thing that was affected either. My afterschool activities, the academic enrichment program that I am enrolled in, Kumon, was so hard for me all of a sudden. Because I spent so much time on school work, I didn't have a lot of time to complete my Kumon homework either. And whenever I did do the work, my head would just hurt because the math I'm working on right now is insanely complicated for me. In the end I had a massive emotional and mental breakdown, and so my parents and I agreed to put me on a break of one month. And to be honest, a month is still too short for me but at least I have a break.
Track tryouts began a month ago, and I tried out for sprints and long jump. Sprints tryouts/practices are in the mornings at 7 am on Mondays and Wednesdays. You can imagine how tired I was every time I had to go to sprints. Staying up late at night and waking up earlier than you need to is the worse thing for me, but it became a habit. Especially having to run for an hour! I just wanted to lie down on the ground and just sleep.
As well, I have been preparing for a job! I was referred by a teacher at my school, to work at my city's annual festival over the summer. Even though it was easier to get the job offer because I had a referral, I was stressing out because I was afraid of not being ready in time. A few days ago I went to the interview, and I now have a summer job! Yay.
When I did have free time, I would just do whatever I wanted. Piano, Pinterest, journaling, anything that would make me relax. And it worked in a way, to calm me down with what I had going on in my life.
The point of this post, I guess, is that if you are feeling stressed, just stop for a bit, close your eyes, and take a deep breath. I was told that taking a break is much better than continuing whatever it is that is breaking you down. It's okay to have a break, but set a goal to get back on your feet and hit the ground running when you do.
Recently, I watched Annie, the musical live. I really enjoyed the show, but a song really caught my attention. I'm sure if you know Annie, you will know this song. But that song in a way changed the way I viewed my life. The lyrics were quite insightful and I'm sure that it will become a sort of mantra for me in the future.
So, after all that spiel, I sincerely hope you are all doing good! Also, take a break if you need to. I am really looking forward to continuing writing on the blog, and I hope you are too. Until next time folks.
Keep Smiling,
M-L
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