M-L's Hiatus Explained

OH MY GOODNESS. IT HAS BEEN WAY TOO LONG.

SO.

Hello, first of all. How have you all been doing???

I have not written anything here since March. And it's not that I have been extremely busy with like, school or anything of the sort. I mean I have, but the past few weeks have also been sort of... draining me. I have been feeling so unmotivated with everything I did, and I did not feel the want to write up a post. I do have a lot of things I want to write about, but the process of putting my thoughts onto the blog were not something I felt like doing. It wasn't just the blog though, I felt like that with everything going on in my life.

A bad habit has started for me. I began sleeping late on school nights. So obviously during school, I would feel so tired and just drained. And I think a lot of people noticed too... My attention span in class would not last long, and my concentration level dropped significantly. My grades didn't get bad or anything, which is a good thing, because I worked even harder to study and complete my assignments. But because I had to put even more work and time into my assignments than I should have needed to, I always felt so exhausted. That made a huge dent in my way of living. And why I always felt so... drained.

My school career, let's say, was not the only thing that was affected either. My afterschool activities, the academic enrichment program that I am enrolled in, Kumon, was so hard for me all of a sudden. Because I spent so much time on school work, I didn't have a lot of time to complete my Kumon homework either. And whenever I did do the work, my head would just hurt because the math I'm working on right now is insanely complicated for me. In the end I had a massive emotional and mental breakdown, and so my parents and I agreed to put me on a break of one month. And to be honest, a month is still too short for me but at least I have a break.

Track tryouts began a month ago, and I tried out for sprints and long jump. Sprints tryouts/practices are in the mornings at 7 am on Mondays and Wednesdays. You can imagine how tired I was every time I had to go to sprints. Staying up late at night and waking up earlier than you need to is the worse thing for me, but it became a habit. Especially having to run for an hour! I just wanted to lie down on the ground and just sleep.

As well, I have been preparing for a job! I was referred by a teacher at my school, to work at my city's annual festival over the summer. Even though it was easier to get the job offer because I had a referral, I was stressing out because I was afraid of not being ready in time. A few days ago I went to the interview, and I now have a summer job! Yay.

When I did have free time, I would just do whatever I wanted. Piano, Pinterest, journaling, anything that would make me relax. And it worked in a way, to calm me down with what I had going on in my life.

The point of this post, I guess, is that if you are feeling stressed, just stop for a bit, close your eyes, and take a deep breath. I was told that taking a break is much better than continuing whatever it is that is breaking you down. It's okay to have a break, but set a goal to get back on your feet and hit the ground running when you do.
Recently, I watched Annie, the musical live. I really enjoyed the show, but a song really caught my attention. I'm sure if you know Annie, you will know this song. But that song in a way changed the way I viewed my life. The lyrics were quite insightful and I'm sure that it will become a sort of mantra for me in the future.

So, after all that spiel, I sincerely hope you are all doing good! Also, take a break if you need to. I am really looking forward to continuing writing on the blog, and I hope you are too. Until next time folks.

Keep Smiling,
M-L

Spring Break Update 2016

OMG, it has been so long.

I've been quite busy this month what with school and clubs and such. Last Friday I had my Model UN Conference, and the days prior to the conference was super hectic. I needed to do last minute research, and prepare for the event. Yesterday, my school hosted a Citizenship Ceremony and boy was that hectic, especially the day before the actual event. I've also had a lot of tests these past couple weeks too...

But ow I'm on my spring break. One word to express my emotions right now. YESSSSSSSSS.

Now that I have a week off, plus one or two days, I can do what I've been wanting to do for a long while!..

But then, I realized, it's not really all about the free time, but the things I need to get done... Like, update. And ASAP.

I need to finish up volunteer hours for this program I'm a member of, ten hours before the end of April -_-... I also need to finish up my school volunteer hours, at least three hours for in-school hours, and five hours for community hours... I also need to do some job-hunting. Yup... I've got to get some stuff going!

I'm not sure how often I'll be able to write on the blog. I'm hoping that I can still keep things consistent, but I'm certain that I don't want to just quit.

So, this was a little update, a little word from a few weeks to prove that I am still on this blog haha. If you are on your spring break, then HAVE FUN and relax. If you are not on your break yet, keep pushing it and finish strong!!

Keep Smiling,
M-L