Third Time's a Charm

Hello everybody,

I guess fate decided that I should write today, at this time, so here goes another post.

If I recall correctly, my last post was about priorities and doing what you need for your best self. Well, I may be glad to say that so far I have been keeping my responsibilities in line. So, here is a quick little story that may inspire you. Or it might be just a little story to entertain you, but that is all up to you. I just feel like sharing something I'm happy about.

Last year, way back when, I took the test for my learner's permit. And I failed.

The thing is, and this I have learned now, I didn't study properly for this test. Maybe I didn't study hard enough, or I barely studied, or I just assumed it was easy and was being too cocky about the whole situation. Anyone of those choices could be true, or all of them, but it all led to the same result.

I spent a year throwing it off, because I didn't feel like opening that up during my school year since I had already a lot on my plate. But as I was tucking away that test every month, every day, it was only until too late that I realized that I was behind. At my age, I'm supposed to already have my actual driver's license, but yet I was still at the beginner stage. So, it was only until recently that I realized I needed to get my butt going.

I studied. I want to say I studied harder. I want to say that I studied a lot. But, it was probably the fear of failure that kept me on my toes in finally passing this test. I had done a solid week going over the rules of the road until I figured it was time for me to catch up to the rest of my peers. And at last I did pass the test.

I'm sharing this quick little story because I want every one of you to know that there are some events in life that you can climb back on. If you fail a road test, even though it's worth a sum of money, you can work harder than you did last time and prove your past self wrong. There aren't very many things that allow you to take second chances, so don't take them for granted and use them sparingly. I have learned this now.

I want to try my best to keep this blog alive. And even though I'm watering it every couple months, just know that I am still here, it's just that I'm trying to water myself too and keeping myself alive haha. In any case, I shall see you all next time.

Keep Smiling,
M-L

...? pt.2

Hello, once again everybody.

I know I haven't been keeping my word about staying on this blog. I've been on and off and lately I've been more off than I have been on. And for those who keep tabs on this blog, first off, wow, thank you for choosing to stay, and secondly, I apologize for having this on such a long pause. But I have come back, and it may be for a while, or this may be the last post I write, but whichever, I'm here to write again.

I'm not sure exactly what this post should be about, but I'll let the current take me for this one.

I have been struggling for some time in the way I'm living my life. I have to say, there is a great difference between last year and this year. So many things have changed, and I especially feel like I've changed.

I want to realize and come to the truth that my life has been going downhill, in terms of my academics and social life and just my well being in general. Why? I don't really know. I've lost motivation in what I want in life, and I have no ambition going for me. I have quit some of my extracurricular activities, and my grades are falling and I've been at home just doing plain nothing most of the time. And I repeat myself. Why?

There was someone who used to be in my life, who I let in my life, who was very special to me. And we did learn to know one another in a matter of a few months. Only a few months. And then, we became strangers. And it still makes me wonder, what exactly happened. And was this the reason why my life turned around?

I don't want to blame this person. I think it, but I could never. If anyone is to blame, it's me.

Do you know the saying, "it's never too late"? I do not believe that that is true. Time passes by too fast and the next thing you know, the time to do what you needed to do is gone.

I guess, what this post was mainly concentrated on is that... you should know to prioritize certain things in your life, so you have enough time to do things you need to do before it's too late. Because it will be too late. And what should be your number one priority, is yourself.

This is what I have for you all, and please take care. Until next time.

Keep Smiling
M-L