...Hello...it's me.
So... it has been quite a while, hasn't it? It's been five months, give or take a few days, since I have been on this blog. I'm getting a lot of mixed emotions right now. Bittersweet. And, coming back here after so long... where do I even start.
School has been rough- ROUGH- for me this year. There has been a big transition for me, and it's been really difficult to find the time to do the things I love, like write, read, play piano, start new hobbies, even cleaning my room finds a tiny spot in my schedule, aha. But I have a four day long weekend coming up, so I decided to come back here, and write a little update on my life. My oh-so busy life that I can't find time to write up a post.
But now I'm thinking, "Okay, but what do I write about?".
I want to write about something that I have realized. A revelation. Personal? Maybe so. But anyways heheh.....
I have noticed, that as a high school student, I have a lot of freedom. At least, I have a lot more freedom than before. You feel more independent as a person. You get around on your own, you're more responsible for your work, your teachers won't chase you for not completing your homework. During lunch, you can go out to eat (I have a strip mall, McDonald's, Subway, and a bubbletea café close to my school, yes) and after school you can decide to stay to study in your school's library, or your local public library.
BUT. For me, it can be a little different, and tricky. I do know that I have gained freedom, but to be honest, it's less than I would like to have. I wish I could go out more, rather than spend most of the time in my room. I would like to go out, until the sun sets and I don't have to worry about stressing over anything. And then, I realize that I have to earn it.
See, I'm still quite young. And even though people my age hang out with their friends until way past their bedtime, I still have to ask my folks for an extra hour. But it's always different for families. With my family, I have to earn my right to go out and enjoy myself with my friends. Earning this would mean like finishing my homework and get good marks, cleaning my room and house and whatnot.
In all, what I've been trying to say is, is that when it comes to something you really want, you should want to do whatever it takes to get it. For me, it would mean to gain more freedom by being more responsible in my life.
This post was very uh, "stream of consciousness"-y. But, take whatever you want from this post and what I think wanting your desires mean.
After all this, I hope you all have enjoyed this read after five months. I want to try to write more often, but with life, we never know when the next is going to be. But, I will be back.
Keep Smiling,
M-L
Thursday, 6 October 2016
Saturday, 30 April 2016
M-L's Hiatus Explained
OH MY GOODNESS. IT HAS BEEN WAY TOO LONG.
SO.
Hello, first of all. How have you all been doing???
I have not written anything here since March. And it's not that I have been extremely busy with like, school or anything of the sort. I mean I have, but the past few weeks have also been sort of... draining me. I have been feeling so unmotivated with everything I did, and I did not feel the want to write up a post. I do have a lot of things I want to write about, but the process of putting my thoughts onto the blog were not something I felt like doing. It wasn't just the blog though, I felt like that with everything going on in my life.
A bad habit has started for me. I began sleeping late on school nights. So obviously during school, I would feel so tired and just drained. And I think a lot of people noticed too... My attention span in class would not last long, and my concentration level dropped significantly. My grades didn't get bad or anything, which is a good thing, because I worked even harder to study and complete my assignments. But because I had to put even more work and time into my assignments than I should have needed to, I always felt so exhausted. That made a huge dent in my way of living. And why I always felt so... drained.
My school career, let's say, was not the only thing that was affected either. My afterschool activities, the academic enrichment program that I am enrolled in, Kumon, was so hard for me all of a sudden. Because I spent so much time on school work, I didn't have a lot of time to complete my Kumon homework either. And whenever I did do the work, my head would just hurt because the math I'm working on right now is insanely complicated for me. In the end I had a massive emotional and mental breakdown, and so my parents and I agreed to put me on a break of one month. And to be honest, a month is still too short for me but at least I have a break.
Track tryouts began a month ago, and I tried out for sprints and long jump. Sprints tryouts/practices are in the mornings at 7 am on Mondays and Wednesdays. You can imagine how tired I was every time I had to go to sprints. Staying up late at night and waking up earlier than you need to is the worse thing for me, but it became a habit. Especially having to run for an hour! I just wanted to lie down on the ground and just sleep.
As well, I have been preparing for a job! I was referred by a teacher at my school, to work at my city's annual festival over the summer. Even though it was easier to get the job offer because I had a referral, I was stressing out because I was afraid of not being ready in time. A few days ago I went to the interview, and I now have a summer job! Yay.
When I did have free time, I would just do whatever I wanted. Piano, Pinterest, journaling, anything that would make me relax. And it worked in a way, to calm me down with what I had going on in my life.
The point of this post, I guess, is that if you are feeling stressed, just stop for a bit, close your eyes, and take a deep breath. I was told that taking a break is much better than continuing whatever it is that is breaking you down. It's okay to have a break, but set a goal to get back on your feet and hit the ground running when you do.
Recently, I watched Annie, the musical live. I really enjoyed the show, but a song really caught my attention. I'm sure if you know Annie, you will know this song. But that song in a way changed the way I viewed my life. The lyrics were quite insightful and I'm sure that it will become a sort of mantra for me in the future.
So, after all that spiel, I sincerely hope you are all doing good! Also, take a break if you need to. I am really looking forward to continuing writing on the blog, and I hope you are too. Until next time folks.
Keep Smiling,
M-L
SO.
Hello, first of all. How have you all been doing???
I have not written anything here since March. And it's not that I have been extremely busy with like, school or anything of the sort. I mean I have, but the past few weeks have also been sort of... draining me. I have been feeling so unmotivated with everything I did, and I did not feel the want to write up a post. I do have a lot of things I want to write about, but the process of putting my thoughts onto the blog were not something I felt like doing. It wasn't just the blog though, I felt like that with everything going on in my life.
A bad habit has started for me. I began sleeping late on school nights. So obviously during school, I would feel so tired and just drained. And I think a lot of people noticed too... My attention span in class would not last long, and my concentration level dropped significantly. My grades didn't get bad or anything, which is a good thing, because I worked even harder to study and complete my assignments. But because I had to put even more work and time into my assignments than I should have needed to, I always felt so exhausted. That made a huge dent in my way of living. And why I always felt so... drained.
My school career, let's say, was not the only thing that was affected either. My afterschool activities, the academic enrichment program that I am enrolled in, Kumon, was so hard for me all of a sudden. Because I spent so much time on school work, I didn't have a lot of time to complete my Kumon homework either. And whenever I did do the work, my head would just hurt because the math I'm working on right now is insanely complicated for me. In the end I had a massive emotional and mental breakdown, and so my parents and I agreed to put me on a break of one month. And to be honest, a month is still too short for me but at least I have a break.
Track tryouts began a month ago, and I tried out for sprints and long jump. Sprints tryouts/practices are in the mornings at 7 am on Mondays and Wednesdays. You can imagine how tired I was every time I had to go to sprints. Staying up late at night and waking up earlier than you need to is the worse thing for me, but it became a habit. Especially having to run for an hour! I just wanted to lie down on the ground and just sleep.
As well, I have been preparing for a job! I was referred by a teacher at my school, to work at my city's annual festival over the summer. Even though it was easier to get the job offer because I had a referral, I was stressing out because I was afraid of not being ready in time. A few days ago I went to the interview, and I now have a summer job! Yay.
When I did have free time, I would just do whatever I wanted. Piano, Pinterest, journaling, anything that would make me relax. And it worked in a way, to calm me down with what I had going on in my life.
The point of this post, I guess, is that if you are feeling stressed, just stop for a bit, close your eyes, and take a deep breath. I was told that taking a break is much better than continuing whatever it is that is breaking you down. It's okay to have a break, but set a goal to get back on your feet and hit the ground running when you do.
Recently, I watched Annie, the musical live. I really enjoyed the show, but a song really caught my attention. I'm sure if you know Annie, you will know this song. But that song in a way changed the way I viewed my life. The lyrics were quite insightful and I'm sure that it will become a sort of mantra for me in the future.
So, after all that spiel, I sincerely hope you are all doing good! Also, take a break if you need to. I am really looking forward to continuing writing on the blog, and I hope you are too. Until next time folks.
Keep Smiling,
M-L
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